The Gardener Verse XXIX - Rabindranath Tagore

: Bear

Speak to me, my love! Tell me in words what you sang.

The night is dark. The stars are lost in clouds. The wind is sighing through the leaves. I will let loose my hair. My blue cloak will cling round me like night. I will clasp your head to my bosom; and there in the sweet loneliness murmur on your heart. I will shut my eyes and listen. I will not look in your face. When your words are ended, we will sit still and silent. Only the trees will whisper in the dark. The night will pale. The day will dawn. We shall look at each other's eyes and go on our different paths.

Speak to me, my love! Tell me in words what you sang.

Life & Time (i)

Kata Jung; manusia tidak dapat menahan hidup tanpa erti.

I'll say; I'm better off dead.

Kata Tagore; di sekian banyak waktu ia selalu menangisi demikian banyaknya waktu yang hilang dan berlalu;

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But all the moments precious never lost. Never we knew they were cleverly hidden by the god himself, away from sight away from sense;

Di dalam benih, pepohon anak, pucuk pucuk yang menjulang, juga di harum bunga dan ranum buah;

Just imagine you've been sleeping all these time and unbeknownst to you the world ceased to stop too;

Dan di suatu pagi kau akan terjaga lalu terjumpa; tanah yang pernah dulu kau pugar telah menjadi sekebun bunga yang mekar.

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Katakan pada Jung; ia benar.

Katakan pada Tagore; ia juga benar.

I'll say to myself; keep searching even if you fail, for at the end the truth will always prevail.

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Italic: Lost Time by Rabindranath Tagore.

My Work Is Done - Steve Von Till

my forging hammer

lies recline

my bellow, too

have lost their wind

my fire extinct

my forge decayed

and in the dust

my vices layed

my coal is spent

my iron is gone

my anvil is broke

my work is done

my work is done

my work is done

my work is done

beautiful.

The Sacrifice - IWTFY

I can sacrifice my health.
And I can sacrifice my money.
I can sacrifice my nights.
And I can sacrifice my sanity.
I can sacrifice my words.
And I can sacrifice a song.
I can sacrifice the world.
And I can sacrifice nearly everyone in it.
The only thing I won't let them take is, you.


- IWTFY, 23th September 2011

Maggie VS Johnny's & Everything Shitty In Between

I've had maggie
You've got Johnny's
I've had bundle tee
You've got Zara in skinny
This is my harsh reality
You pampered princess
Your life's so easy
Sad and hungry
A combination that so not gonna destroy me
Infact, we're friends so dear
Friends won't betray each other
Bites of hunger never bleed neither hurt
Infact, it stays with me
In rough times of pain and agony
Look at that
Rich kids seen everywhere
At Pavilion, Star Hill in designer wear
Flaunting money their papa got
Riding cars their mama bought
While I'm sittin' in this shitty bus
Overworked, I looked so disgust
Back at home
I live by packets of instant craps
Yellowy bits of curly plastic carb
Who cares a lost little girl like me
Who has nothing but poems and lullaby
Tell me
How could a girl survive
In this mercilessly unfair world?
When everything she had
Shattered at the very threshold?
You know what?
Everytime I look at inside of me
I see death gleaming happily
I'm surprised for I often thought
Didn't death always looked gloomy?
Oh please
Do not say you know how I feel
You won't 'cause neither do I
A fate so cruel in a world so ill
So, just let me perish... and die.

The Gardener, Verse XLVI - Rabindranath Tagore

You left me and went on your way.

I thought I should mourn for you and set your solitary image in my heart wrought in a golden song.

But ah, my evil fortune

Time is short.

Youth wanes year after year; the spring days are fugitive; the frail flowers die for nothing, and the wise man warns me that life is but a dewdrop on the lotus leaf.

Should I neglect all this to gaze after one who has turned her back on me?

That would be rude and foolish! 

For time is short.

Then, come, my rainy nights with pattering feet; smile, my golden autumn; come, careless April, scattering your kisses abroad.

You come, and you, and you also!

My loves, you know we are mortals.

Is it wise to break one's heart for the one who takes her heart away?

For time is short.

It is sweet to sit in a corner to muse and write in rhymes that you are all my world.

It is heroic to hug one's sorrow and determine not to be consoled.

But a fresh face peeps across my door and raise its eyes to my eyes.

I cannot but wipe away my tears and change the tune of my song.

For time is short. 

A beautiful verse indeed. One of my favorite. You can also listen to my amateurish recitation of this verse by clicking this player. Forgive me my silly pronunciation or whatever. Just.. enjoy it! 

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A Sweet Poem For The Sweetest Person

You are my brown sugar
You are my yellow butter
You are so sweet and sincere
Like a rainbow in the clouds so bright
Gives colour to my hollow dull white.

Thank you for being so sweet!

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Goodbye, My Darling

Darling
it's a one too cold night
please darling
come hug and hold me tight.

Darling
i wanna hear a lullaby
please darling
help me cease this cry?

Darling
i still can not sleep
please darling
i want a dream that deep.

Darling
o, why this sudden sour?
please darling
stay for a couple more hour.

Darling
i hope there is love for us
but darling
what all i got is lust.

Darling
this despair is too hard to bear
and darling
we must not but stop this affair.

Darling
whatever left only a memory
sure darling
to the grave that will i carry.

Goodbye my darling
hope all well for you
goodbye my darling
hope i'll find another you.



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A Wasted Heart

dear,

i am not happy

i am in misery

this love has taken its toll on me

this time everything is not as what it should be

my heart, 

once full of you

an image of i would never erase

with a smile that i thought would last forever

with a warmth of which i always treasure

but now,

like a piece of paper

crumpled

like a petal of flower

withered

so frail too fragile

upon see you it will no longer cry 

for what else left if all the tears have long gone dry?

say, 

how could you unbreak a heart?

no, you could not

for a heart once broken

it will forever shattered.

31.02.12


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The Gardener Verse XLI - Rabindranath Tagore

I long to speak the deepest words I have to say to you
but I dare not – for fear you should laugh
That is why I laugh at myself and shatter my secret in jest
I make light of my pain, afraid you should do so.


I long to tell you the truest words I have to say to you
but I dare not – being afraid that you should not believe them
That is why I disguise them in untruth, saying the contrary of what I mean
I make my pain appear absurd, afraid that you should do so.


I long to use the most precious words I have for you
but I dare not – fearing I should not be paid with like value
That is why I give you hard names and boast of my callous strength
I hurt you, for fear you should never know any pain.


I long to sit silent by you,
but I dare not – lest my heart come out at my lips
That is why I prattle and chatter lightly and hide my heart behind words
I rudely handle my pain, for fear you should do so.


I long to go away from your side
but I dare not – for fear my cowardice should become known to you
That is why I hold my head high and carelessly come into your presence
Constant thrusts from your eyes keep my pain fresh for ever.